It truly was a leap of faith when I moved to Charlotte. I had been living at home with my parents for a year when I thought a window closed but actually it was opening to a new season. He provided. I secured a house and roommates before I even secured my job. Later, on the same day, I had a phone interview that turned into a temporary position to begin as soon as I got moved in. He provided.
I won’t lie and say I didn’t question or second guess if I was being naïve or that I had not thought this through. One big thought was “What if this doesn’t work out?”, leading me to question, Am I acting on faith or feelings? As Lara Casey put it in Make It Happen, “When it comes to our faith, we must choose trust over feelings. There are many times we cannot feel God working, but we can trust He is.” Being a Type A planner, it is sometimes hard for me to let go and let God have control. I like order, schedules and lists. God is in the driver’s seat though. And He’s not giving me the whole map. I decided to believe and trust that He has a plan that is perfect for me. Lara reminded me that “Feelings aren’t the enemy, though; they are the opportunities to draw closer to God and learn His wisdom.”
This new season in my life has drawn me closer to God, creating a foundation of His love that I’ve been looking for far too long. A recent series at Elevation Church, brought all my worries to light. I was coming out of my drought. There is a cloud and I have to chase the rain. (Watch the sermon here!) When we really need God to speak to us, we must ask Him to bring the storm, bring the rain. As Pastor Steven put it, “I’ve got seed in the ground and unless it rains, they can’t come forth” so bring the struggles that will test me and draw me closer to Him.
God will not allow a source other than Himself guiding our lives, He will cut us off because we cannot be sourced by something that cannot sustain our lives. I did not understand why I was being dealt those circumstances and felt forced to uproot my life. God cut me off. But he didn’t stop loving me. He didn’t stop providing for me. I was done with my previous season. God was grabbing my attention and putting into motion, something new. He was ready for me to plant my seed elsewhere and pour myself into something that would bring me peace and serve Him. God whispered, “Don’t worry, daughter. It’s not fabulous, ‘cause I’m not finished.” -Alicia Bruxvoort (Proverbs 31 Ministries) The Bible declares God will make all things beautiful in their time (Ecclesiastes 3:11) and that He is working all things for good for those who love Him (Romans 8:28). But when life gets messy and hard, it’s easy to doubt these promises for ourselves. When our faithful Father looks at our lives, He does not see the chaos that is, but the beauty that will be.
Even when you feel like you can’t, you can, because He loves you. I’m not sure how many read my posts but I hope that just one person will find comfort in my words and overcome a hard day or rough season.